TDLR; I'm unemployed and feel like garbage all the time and would really like to stop feeling like garbage. May content is gonna be delayed also.

Okay so… here’s the thing. I haven’t been doing okay lately. I haven’t been doing okay in a while actually. I’ve tried to write this whole spiel out over and over again but I keep getting frustrated at my inability to describe why it’s been hard. I suppose the best way I can get the point across is that one year ago today, I graduated from college. All I wanted after was to get my foot in the door and have some kind of creative job. Maybe someday I could publish my own comics and be stable on that income if I got lucky. But then the plague came and wiped out my already miniscule chances of getting that stability.

Keeping this to a minimum, this past year has been rough. I’ve wrestled with clinical depression and anxiety/panic disorders the majority of my life and having a year of failures hasn’t exactly helped with me feeling okay about myself. It’s been so goddamn hard trying to manage well… everything. The reason content has been slow and inconsistent is because I’ve been burnt out for months. It just feels like no matter how much I overwork myself and how much I try, I can’t get anywhere.

But droning on and on about how much I hate myself isn’t the point of this point. The point is to say that I’m so fucking tired of feeling like this. I’m so done with having no energy to do things my mind labels as pointless, and certain recent events have led me to new conclusions of sorts.

Basically, I’m done waiting on someone else to look at me and my work and say “Okay, I’ll take a chance on you.” I’m tired of struggling to keep my head above water and I’ve realized that it’s time to stop screaming at the people on the boat passing by to give me a hand. Fuck it, I’ll just do it myself. It’s gonna suck trying to keep swimming in this ice cold water, but I've been doing it this long. I’ll keep treading water until something happens.

May content is gonna be a little late. On top of the stress previously mentioned I’ve been going through some physical medical issues too. I’ll do my best to get things to everyone when I can, but I’m tired of lying and saying that I’m okay through a fake smile and gritted teeth. I’m not happy with where I am right now. But some of the projects I took on a while ago to fill the void are ending soon, meaning I have more time to dedicate to Club Lamashtu and other content. The paychecks coming from those projects will make it harder, but who knows, maybe I can turn this dumb comic about fucking monsters into a makeshift life preserver.

Had it not been for the unexpected support I’ve already gotten thus far I would have drowned by now. I have an opportunity and I’ll be damned if I don’t see my one shot at doing something with my life and take it. So thank you for the support, no matter the kind. I hope I can make you all proud soon, and that I can produce something worthy of all your kindness and support. I want to stop letting my own self disappointment and currently unrealistic goals keep me pinned, and I hope to see you all there when I eventually can.

-CorruptedCryptid/Sage